Hey lovelies!

There is a Jamaican saying that my parents love to rub in my face at every sign of misunderstanding: "Come yuh a come." As a teenager, of course you know that there is an abundance of life ahead of you, but you also enjoy taking credit for the years of experience that you do have under your belt.

I'd like to think I know alot of things concerning relationships, and love but the truth of the matter is that no matter how old you are there is always more to learn.

Recently, I've been pondering on my given situation which right now seems a bit akward. My "boyfriend" G, has fallen way below standard. I love him for doing the best he can...but right now our stiches dont quite match up the way they're supposed to...In addition to his request for celibacy, he was supposed to be going on a trip to Japan then to Africa. Naturally I was devestated that I wasn't going to be able to see him this summer, and we made the best of the last few days we had together at school.

Luckily my cousin comes to visit and I'm able to talk more freely with him on the phone, but when she leaves--the contact ceases. Even when we were still in school, he was hardly every online and since phone conversations were out of the question because of parental reasons, conversation was limited. The last time I talked to him was on my birthday, when he squeezes in a quick Happy Birthday by the skin of his teeth. When I ask him when he's leavin for his trip to Japan, he stumbles upon "Oh um......about that...uh....the trip got canceled." I asked why, and the response was "Apparently the Japanese are afraid of Swine Flu."

I know what you're thinking...."Shouldn't you be happy??" Yes. I should. However, WHY is it that I have to ask him about the trip? He knew that was a very important thing to me and that should've been one of the first things he should discuss with me.....Right??? But he "forgot." You all should know by now QueenB doesn't mess with that bullshyt. I play strait. Which is exactly why I made my relationship status invisible on Facebook. When he asks I'm going to just say "Hey we really dont talk anymore, and as much as I enjoy spending time with you at school, this isnt fun for either of us right now, so let's call it quits." Then move on.

Now that I got that off my chest, I understand that men are not perfect. As a matter of fact HUMANS aren't perfect, but why is it so hard to find the perfect package? Attractive face (so other girls just TRIP over him!), bangin body (and I mean in EVERYYYYYYY area ), amazing fun personality, and character. It seems simple to ask for, but ladies accross the world can testify that it is one heck of a search...

I'm a flirt, yes I must admit. I love attention, but what girl doesn't melt when a cute guy pays her a compliment?? I'm still in love with Jelly, and we still talk as if we were a couple sometimes...but theres always something missing (in addition to the distance *sigh*). Ramen and I are extremely close....and were always on the edge of dating....He is an amazing guy who can satisfy me in every way that a female could possibly ask for....but there is also something missing. I could probably look past it, but my heart keeps saying I deserve better. Don't we all? Or do we settle for something thats amazing...with a little corner missing?

I already discovered that you can't teach an old dog new tricks....but if its reliable would it make sense to put it out on the street?

As an example:

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On my birthday I was supposed to "chill" with D (I'm talking about that Jeremih Birthday ____)....a large amount of things went wrong before he even got there...but when he did. I noticed that his nails were long....I know I know this seems like the stupidest shyt ever. But its not. He knows that long nails are 1) a HUGE pet peev of mine and 2) dangerous!?!?! I was like boy are u serious?? And I was kinda blown too because like a month earlier my coody had gotten injured due to some careless "lovin'", so WHY on earth would you come to put it down on me with nails that long???

Two things that astounded me...First of all I had requested that they be cut the nite before so that it would be enjoyable for both of us...no "accidents"... and secondly his response when I commented on it was "It could be worse"......

.....hold on......moment of scilence....

REALLY???? I was blown....So Its things like that, that deter my body and soul from entering into a commitment with an otherwise great guy....hes amazing. Again lacking other things...but wat about an "Im sorry baby...I Know but I didnt have time..." or something you know??

Well I'm rambling...but what do you think? I personally wish men came in boxes so we could order exactly what we wan't with a return policy....but we all know the world is far from one big store.

Some thoughts to ponder on. Help a girl out please.

Peace and love,

QueenB

Hey lovelies! The one and only QueenB is back. Sorry for those of you who missed the hell out of me but hey, a girl's gotta keep her academics in check right??

So while I was gone, things have changed up a bit. My cousin CareBear came to stay with me for 3 weeks, technically she was supposed to stay longer and practically live with us, but her job called her back for a three month contract . While she was hear we went out on the town Diva style! We hit up Georgetown for some serious shopping, Wheaton mall, Montgomery mall, Alexandria VA, and ate at Benihana's twice lol. (You know how us sophisticated ladies like that sushi! ).

Relationship wise, G and I are currently on a break, due to some personal circumstances but mainly the fact that he will be traveling to Japan then Africa for the summer....and you already know how I am with males....teehee.

Having said that....somone that I completely cast out of my life has made his way back in...and because our friendship has started over I'm giving him a new nickname....Ramen.

Ramen and I have known eachother for about a year and a half....and due to some kind of punishment (that im not about to rehash) he stopped talking to me for 3 months...that along with the note we ended our conversation on left me bitter and upset with him...

I refuse to go into detail about where this is going until im positive...for now were just chillin....lol  But through all the rough and tumble my bestfriend D has been there for me like no other...I love him to death.

Miss K is heading to France...and Im not sure how to handle this...our relationship is slowly being put on the back burner...why? I dont know exactly. But I feel like its for the better since it might hurt more when shes actually gone....

Well thats whats been going on for now!

Peace and love,

QueenB